I feel that I need to shed light on some hidden truth in my life tonight, whether anyone sees it or not. I feel that maybe writing out the issue will help me to ponder or resolve it. Writing as if an audience will review the issue helps.
I have been feeling hopelessly unmotivated, uninspired, and careless lately. I feel this way when it comes to applying myself to an activity, hobby, or task that would involve my free time, will power, skills, and talents. I do not feel that I care to do anything productive or positive with my time when I have some to spare. I spend all day doing what I have to, and I do not attempt to care for my own interests or activities. I continue to find that I sit in silence without doing or thinking anything overly important when I finally have “me” time. I vaguely procrastinate a few possible activities and quickly discard them in that same moment. I feel as if I find that I just do not care to do anything. It seems that I would rather bask in nothingness. I don’t understand this, but I find myself up against this very boring, gray wall every day lately.
I don’t have any ideas. I don’t have any passions. I don’t have any inspiration. I just find myself without a care in the world. Nothing matters so much that I have to do it. I feel utterly unconcerned and uninspired.
(Please readers note, I do not mean that I am depressed. I am very happy in life. My point, as it remains, is that I find myself lost when it comes to doing anything other than the daily activities that I have to. “Me” time is very empty, and this is what my issue is.)
What do you guys say? Does anyone have any thoughts, ideas, or advice? Has anyone ever went through a season like this in their life?